bimbang
yang terasa hanyalah deru
terdiam dalam semu
tak ada arah
tak ada makna
yang tertulis hanya kata -kata
mengubah menjadi ada
nol dan tiada
mata dan lidah terpasung
yang bergerak hanya jemari
yang bekerja otak ini
lagi-lagi tanpa arah
sekali lagi aku lenyap
love is not a curse
it's a present from Allah..
it's a gift that we should to keep and save
and wait until Allah take it back or gone by itself
or may be.. become two side love
i wait..
i hope..
or may be looking for another..
but i still have a feeling about him
and hope badly..
Yes, i've falling in love again
and yes, i hate this feeling enough
because of one side care, one side feel, one side love
when i saw his back with another girl, there's something grab my heart..
I just can leave them
and tried to always smile :)
but, only God and me, who knows my hurt
i tried and tried... Erase, delete, eliminate this behavior, this hurt, this feeling..
I tried and tried. Make stimuly that make me can forget about him.And almost got it. But when he's come suddenly.
My fake stimuly is over
that crush is coming again..
And i hate it badly
i am the red nose clown
contains with the unfunny jokes
they just need my fools
she starts to talk about her 'perfect match'
without know what hurt grown inside
i am just a ridiculous woman
and smile when i afraid with around
i try to keep silent when my brother and sister start to mock me
then i cried alone
few days ago i exploded, but my mom judging me
they never ask....
what i feel inside
my desire to destroyed anything
why i like to sleep more
is to run from everything
to run...
if i could
twinkle .. twinkle..
i'm looking for myself, anyone knows?
little.. little..
i searched and searching, do you know?
Sudah tak berarti lagi
mata, nada, kata
Bagi masa, buta sudah biasa
terlalu busuk untuk melihat realita
Untuk waktu, tuli adalah wajar
muak mendengar jilatan manis-dusta
Bagi mereka, bisu kewajiban
siapa bicara, maka membangkang
(I/i)ndonesia?
Tuhan, kadang aku bertanya 'kenapa aku ada?'
Tuhan, kadang aku brpikir 'bukankah bila aku tdk ada dunia tak akan berubah?'
'..dan teman-teman,saudara,orang tua, bila aku tak ada, hidup mereka akan berjalan seperti biasa?'
Jadi.. 'untuk apa?'
Kadang aku drop,kadang aku capek,kadang aku tak bersyukur
Sering aku gembira,sering aku melawak,sering aku hanya tertawa
Namun aku lebih memikirkan pnyebab ksedihanku..
